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Stupid psychology...

It's irritating how my mind works sometime. Back in December, I totted up how much I had written and was very proud of the two novellas and thirty-odd short stories I wrote between Nov. 2013 and Dec. 2014. Now I look at the first month-and-a-half of 2015 and I feel like such a slacker. I've posted one story in that time. I'm really disappointed in myself. Of course, though I haven't been writing as much, mostly because work has been a bear (I am not enjoying all this new responsibility) and I've been playing Guild Wars 2, the thought is just really depressing. Of course, if I was honest with myself, I'd realize that I just finished another novella - that's the personal thing I've mentioned before that I'm not posting anywhere - that's longer than Mistaken Identity, but for some reason, it doesn't count in my mind because I haven't posted it.

I'm a pretty happy person and I hate the way this feels, because this is just not me. *grump*

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a_phoenixdragon
Feb. 19th, 2015 02:55 am (UTC)
Sounds like you caught Winter-Blues late. UGH. I'm sorry, bb. Here's to hoping it goes away soon!!

*HUGS*
shivver13
Feb. 19th, 2015 05:46 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I hope so, too. Though it just occurred to me that I popped out a short story followup to the novella, and I actually like it a lot better than the novella, so that's made me feel a lot better.

Right now I'm trying to come up with an idea for the minor character ficathon. It's been making me think about a lot of episodes, and that's always fun.
dm12
Feb. 19th, 2015 04:51 am (UTC)
Real life sometimes does need to come first. People at work apparently trust you with more responsibility, and that is a good thing. Whether you like it or not, it's there.

If you've written it, it counts. Doesn't matter if you posted it; the writing takes time and effort and you did it! So get your mind on the same page because that's awesome!

Edited at 2015-02-19 12:33 pm (UTC)
shivver13
Feb. 19th, 2015 05:53 pm (UTC)
It's very nice that my boss trusts me enough to give me more responsibility, but I do wish he'd asked first! He just sort of started giving me more things to do and more power to manage this project, until one day, my job title changed. :P It's been difficult to learn to juggle everything.

I'm slowly bringing my mind around. I'm still wrestling with the idea of showing the fic to my husband. On the one hand, he's always supportive of my writing, but on the other hand, this fic departs from canon more than I'm comfortable with and I'd be heartily embarrassed if he read it and felt it went too far astray. Another stupid thing my mind does - I feel compelled to work within the established universe and feel that the flights of fancy I indulge in in my imagination are silly.
flowsoffire
Feb. 21st, 2015 09:26 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Feeling for you, there, dear… I've just barely written a line since NaNo, it just fried my brain. *sighs* And feelings of disappointment and negativity never do help us, do they? Your unposted story does count, though. Here's to hoping for more inspiration and productivity in the future! ♥
shivver13
Feb. 22nd, 2015 09:41 pm (UTC)
The "minor character" ficathon has my brain going, though I haven't put a word on paper yet. I have a neat idea for it, but I don't know if I can pull it off.

I did go back through my list of fics and reminded myself about working on my two short story collections. I haven't thought about them in a while, but seeing them made me go, "Oh, yeah! I need to do that!"

So hopefully, the dry spell will be over soon.
flowsoffire
Feb. 26th, 2015 07:52 pm (UTC)
That's great :) What character would that be?

Fingers crossed! ♥
shivver13
Mar. 7th, 2015 03:56 am (UTC)
He doesn't actually have a name. Well, I'm sure he has a name, but it's certainly never mentioned. And in fact, he doesn't say a word in the show. I call him "The Man on the Left." And I shall leave you with that tantalizing little thought. ;)
flowsoffire
Mar. 14th, 2015 04:16 pm (UTC)
Hahaha, intriguing indeed! :D
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